Wake Me Up!

"Wake Me Up When It's All Over, 

   When I Am Wiser and I Am Older

          All This Time I was Founding Myself

     And I Didn't Know I Was Lost" 

                              - Avincii

Well this year I realised that I am looking s

o hard to find who I really am 

that I've lost so much pretending to be someone I am not.

Someone that came out of a book.

I realised I am mentally older than the age on my driving licence.

Most people interprete this song as cheerful, finding a place where you belong, forever young and let me make my mistakes (etc...).

For me its the song that expresses how tired I am of being young, feeling like I don't belong anywhere and with no one. Alone against the universe, and misunderstood.

Maybe I don't understand the world as the world doesn't try to understand me, but

in it's defence that was never the world's plan to understand me.

People eventually find where they belong, maybe someday I will too,

and when I do I hope to be able to see it.

I stare at people and see that they've found their place, 

they are happy.

Why didn't I? I start to believe ( or desperately convince myself )

that there is a bigger picture out there to see.

But do I have to paint it? How do I see it?

How do I find it?

More questions than answers,

Either way, I'll know and appreciate it

 "When I Am Wiser and I Am Older"

Or so I hope.

But right now, I am Just LOST

XOXO

OnlyChick

Hope out there someone understands 

If u do leave me a comment and let me know!